Even When I'm Alone, I Hear Your Mellow Drone- On Failure, breakups, and reunion bootlegs


I think I was roughly about two years late to the party when it came to Failure.

And probably, even by the time I bought Fantastic Planet on CD at Best Buy in the spring of 1997, I’m guessing that they had already fallen apart by then. Sometimes I am uncertain if I’ve invented a memory as a convenient way to explain something, or if it really happened this way, but I am 99% confident that I heard the band’s song, “Stuck on You,” used in something advertising something for the 1997 MTV Movie Awards—I want to say it was for one of the nominations for “Best Kiss,” but again, I’m not sure if this really happened or if I have just fabricated this.

It would make sense though, wouldn’t it? A song called “Stuck on You” being used as background music while two A-List Hollywood actors smooch?

Anyway, at 14, Fantastic Planet was, like, way too much for me. I couldn’t get into it at the time, but for some reason, I re-discovered it about a year later, sitting in my bedroom, playing Twisted Metal 2 for Playstation, listening to the record over and over again on my stereo as I drove around, shot at other drivers, and crashed into things.


In the early ages of the Internet, using AOL and a dial up connection, I tried to find out all I could about Failure once I had fully embraced Fantastic Planet.  Eventually, I surmised that they had disbanded, and only later on did I learn that it was primarily due to bassist and lyricist Greg Edwards’ debilitating addiction to heroin. Their “swan song,” if you will, was not Fantastic Planet, but instead, a fitting cover of the Depeche Mode song “Enjoy The Silence,” appearing on a D.M. tribute album entitled For The Masses.


Because of my obsession with the band, I picked up their two earlier albums—the ramshackle, Steve Albini engineered Comfort, and then the proto-Fantastic Planet space rock of Magnified. I also started looking into the band’s current projects at that time—Edwards would resurface in 2001 as part of the trio Autolux, but it was lead vocalist and guitarist Ken Andrews that stayed busy with production work, and eventually went on to form various solo projects and a new band in 2002 called Year of The Rabbit.

In song “So Far Around The Bend” by The National, the protagonist of the song says she “prays for Pavement to get back together.” I guess after learning of Failure’s demise, I never really spent a lot of time wondering if or hoping that they would ever reunite. In 2004, Edwards and Andrews curated a DVD of miscellaneous footage recorded from the band’s history, released along with a CD of 4-track demos, album outtakes, and soundcheck recordings.

In 2010, the band issued Fantastic Planet on vinyl for the first time—a gorgeous, incredible sounding 2XLP set, but again, a reunion was just never something that I gave any thought to.

Rumblings of the Failure reunion started in October of last year when the band suddenly had a legit Facebook page—and everyone collectively shat themselves when the cover photo for the page simply said “Failure Twenty Fourteen.” Shortly after that, it was announced that they had reunited and would be performing live dates in California in February, with ambiguous talks of new material and a national tour.

Failure’s first reunion show was on the 13th, and because the Internet, within a day or two, a bootleg recording of it surfaced.

Some may consider me a die-hard fan of a lot of bands, but one thing I don’t really fuck with a ton are bootleg recordings of live shows. In this modern age that we are currently living in, the “new bootleg” has become shitty You Tube snippets taken on somebody’s mobile phone, uploaded the day after the show. And the idea of listening to a recording of a live show brings to mind the halcyon days of file sharing—downloading anything and everything on Audio Galaxy, only to find the songs I had downloaded were not the album version, but a poorly recorded live bootleg, complete with crowd conversations.

 So it was with some reservation that I went into listening to this recording, and also, it was with some work on my part to even be able to listen to it. The original source files were .FLAC, which for those of you that do not know, is an incredibly high quality audio file. And because I only choose to listen to music on my computer for convenience when it comes to writing these pieces, I don’t have a program that readily plays .FLAC files.

And that meant I had to use the audio editing software Audacity to covert them to WAV files, because I only have the free version of Audacity that doesn’t let you convert them directly to mp3. And so once I was rid of the .FLACs, and had a desktop full of WAVs, I then opened up each one in Garage Band—yes, I know, a crude program, but one I am comfortable using never the less—and I began to tinker with them to remove some of the dead space between songs (as well as the table talk in between songs) as well as adjusting the audio so the quality was slightly easier on my ears. Once I did all of THAT, I saved them all as mp3s for ease and convenience of listening to my computer.

Basically, I’m a big huge loser, and while my wife was working overtime at her very important job, I was spending my Saturday evening parked on my living room floor, watching my companion rabbits do the things they do, converting 18 audio files.

But now this brings us to the bootleg in question. The original recording, while palatable, still suffered from the relatively typical bootleg pitfalls of things being really bass heavy, and the whole thing sounding kind of cavernous and distant. Not that I’m any kind of savant when it comes to this stuff—I mean, I did work in my college A/V Department for 3.5 years—but really, I was just trying to make things a tad bit clearer sounding.

So wait—this is still an album review, I think. Not a play by play of my teen years listening to Fantastic Planet, and my dumb adult life converting audio files.

Listening to this recording is, in a word, incredibly exciting.

It’s also incredibly raw sounding, and at times, unhinged. As a studio act, Failure relied heavily on overdubs and multiple tracks—thus creating rather complex and densely layered material. Operating live as a three-piece with drummer Kellii Scott, all the songs are stripped down to their core, with Andrews and Edwards switching off between guitar and bass, along with some minor keyboard work. So it’s a tad jarring at first to hear the paired down versions of songs I’ve known so well one way for so long, but it’s also refreshing.

The songs never really get away from them, per se, but I mean, it’s been like 17 years since they were operating as a function live band, so there are some moments where Andrews doesn’t quite hit the notes he’s reaching for, or the guitar seems a tad out of tune or off. But that’s okay, because if you are listening to a Failure bootleg, you can probably forgive them for any minor cock-ups.

I would stop short of saying that their setlist plays like a “greatest hits” collection, because for a band that had three albums before dissolving, they stick primarily to material from Fantastic Planet, only sprinkling in four tracks from Magnified, and saving an eight-minute version of “Screen Man,” from their 1992 debut Comfort, as the final song of the encore.

The band sounds like they are having a blast though—the small amounts of stage banter with the crowd are funny, and the songs never come off as phoned in. The crowd also seems genuinely happy to be there—huge cheers start as the band rips right into the slow burning opening track “Another Space Song,” and I can’t even begin to imagine the rush that you would feel from hearing the opening riff to “Stuck on You.” And overall, the songs are heavy, doc. Failure aren’t really a “hard rock” band—even though their paling around with Tool in the mid-90s certainly would lead you to believe otherwise. I’ve always considered them to be “Space Rock,” mostly because Fantastic Planet is a record about alienation, heroin addiction, and space travel. You could call Failure “alt rock” if you wanted, but they always had a heavier sound, and in a live setting, they let it show for sure.


Due to my crippling concert anxiety, and overall curmudgeonly attitude about most things, seeing bands that I even have the slightest passing interest in coming through the Twin Cities area has turned into: “Oh, such and such is touring? Are they coming through—oh yes, yes, they are playing in Minneapolis. Well, I’m sure as shit not going to go to that so why am I even looking at this?” However, there is a very small list of artists I would break my “no new concerts” rule for—a Failure reunion tour is obviously one of them.


I’ve never written a review of a bootleg recording before, and this has obviously turned into more of a thing about my history with a band that’s super important to me. Basically, if you are a fan of Failure, you should try to track down a recording of their first reunion show. If you aren’t aware of Failure as a band, then you maybe should start with their studio output, and then if you like that, then maybe move onto this? The recording quality is, you know, pretty good, but since I wasn’t at this show, it’s certainly not a recording I am going to treasure forever or something like that. I guess what it represents is a small slice of hope for people that would like to see a full-on reunion tour, and even see new material coming from the band.

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